WHAT IS?
In the silence of the night I turn to the stars and the moon and ask? What is this feeling, these mixed emotions, that keep coming back to haunt my soul?
What is this feeling that makes no sense and pulls away from all reason, that seems so wrong, and yet feels so right?
What is this feeling that keeps bringing back the memories I've fought so hard to banish to the deep reaches of my mind?
Why - I ask? Why does my mind keep bringing all those short yet sweet moments back? For the object of this feeling would be better of with me staying away, as I am not sure I would be able to provide her with all she needs, except for the true nature of me - and I know, deep inside, that it might never be enough..
What is this feeling that makes me want to shield her from all harm, that makes me wish so hard to get lost in those deep eyes once again, that wants to embrace that sweet being so hard that she becomes truly aware I will be there for her, no matter what.
I don't know.
All I know is that, no matter how hard I try to fight this feeling, no matter how deep into my mind I try to send it to, it will always find its way back.